12.12.2009

africa: day 9

Sunday 11.15.09 - our last day in Africa

I hate mornings that are filled with packing bags and anticipated goodbyes.

We went to church at Fountain of Life's new property. They are currently holding church under a rented tent. We got to see the foundation of the new church, as well as the foundation of the new home for the boys!

The service was awesome - Dave preached and Pastor Kioko translated. Pastor was amazing! His translations were so quick, and he spoke with the same intonations and emotion as Dave - it was such a cool thing to watch. Clara, Nora & Irene all led worship. They apologized to us because their sound system wasn't working, so they couldn't use the keyboard or anything - - but let me tell you, I am so thankful that the system was down. When Nora sang the first line and then Clara, Irene & the congregation joined in... wow. It was absolutely beautiful. I had goosebumps the whole time.


Photo by Sara.

Little Moses was sitting by me, and he didn't make it through the sermon. He kept nodding and then doing the head-jerk, and then in the middle of a prayer, I felt a little thud against my shoulder, and that's where his head stayed for the rest of the sermon.
Taken during the nodding routine.

After church, we had a community lunch with the congregation and then just played with the boys for a couple hours. I met Pastor Kioko's son, Prince, who was so adorable & funny. He kept coming up to me and running his hands over my hair over & over and just saying, "So soft! So soft!" He spoke excellent English and a LOT of it - I don't think he ever stopped talking or moving!

Prince on the right, a little boy from church on the left.












As the afternoon wore on, and the departure crept closer, the boys started asking to write us notes in our journals, and occasionally one or two of them would go off for a minute and just sit alone, either just watching everyone pensively, or writing a little note. I'll include some excerpts from the notes I received in another post.




Fountain of Life boys, some church members, and our team.

Finally the bus came to take the boys back to their temporary home. A couple of the older boys, a bit sheepishly, smuggled letters into our hands under the guise of a handshake. There were a lot of hugs, a lot of last minute jokes, and a lot of tears.

After the boys were all packed into the bus, they were hanging out of the windows, all trying to talk to all of us at once and say goodbye one more time... I was managing to hold myself together, until my buddy Benedict reached through the window took my hand and said, "Bye, my BFF." I smiled and said, "I'll see you again, rafiki melele," (Swahili for "friend forever"). Then the bus pulled away, and I lost it. Thankfully pretty much everyone was either crying or avoiding eye contact. We prayed for the boys and then piled into our vans to go change before we went to the airport. The boys went to Lameck's apartment, and the girls went to Mama Florence's house.

Pastor Kioko and his family were riding with us, so Prince crawled in next to me, took my face in his hands and whispered, "No more tears." Of course, it was so adorable I wanted to burst into tears all over again, but I just hugged him and dried my eyes, then listened to him jabber the whole way to Mama Florence's house as he played with my hair. He asked me about "America" and what our country was like, so I told him about how it was starting to get cold in Michigan and soon it would snow, and then I told him about snow. Ellie was sitting on the other side of him, looking out the window, undoubtedly lost in her thoughts. Prince looked at her and asked, "Why are you so serious?" - which is just hilarious to hear coming from an 8-yr old Kenyan boy. We asked him what it meant to be "serious" and he put on a stern, contemplative face. We laughed and I said, "Well Prince, are you ever serious?" He looked up at me, somewhat bemused and said, "Of course!"

When we arrived at Mama Florence's house, he jumped out of the van, started running around, still talking, then ran back up to me, and without taking a breath exclaimed, "And when you come back, please bring me some snow!"

Pastor Kioko & his family left shortly afterward, we freshened up, chatted with Mama Florence, Clara, Nora & Irene until the boys arrived, then we said our goodbyes once again, were off to the airport, boarded the plane, and watched out the window until Africa was hidden beneath the clouds.

Now I'm back in Michigan, praying for my boys, looking at their pictures and reading their letters every day and asking God for an opportunity to return to them as soon as possible.

If you want to see more pictures of our trip, we've compiled everyone's pictures here.

If you have any other questions, I'd be more than happy to talk your ear off about the experience!


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Paul: "Rachel, will you come see us again? I fear you will not."
Me: "Paul - if the Lord lets me, I will come see you again."
-pause, as Paul looks directly into my eyes, as if trying to read my heart, then - -
Paul: "I feel that you will come again."

12.07.2009

happy trails

My little brother is all grown up & moving out West to live the cowboy dream (we hope!). He stopped here tonight & had an early dinner with us before completing the first leg of his 24-hour drive. He'll be settling in Killdeer, North Dakota, where this afternoon it was a whopping 2 degrees Fahrenheit (feels like -9 degrees). Typical of Robert's sense of humor, he grinned and commented, "Yeah, but it's a dry -9 degrees."

Brosive - I pray that this is a remarkable opportunity for you.
We love you so much!


Pair of boots and a sack of clothes
Free & easy down the road I go
Hangin' memories on the high line poles
Free & easy down the road I go
Free & easy down the road I go

Ragweed's rockin' on the radio
Free & easy down the road I go
So I keep rollin' like an old banjo
Free & easy down the road I go

Got the sun shinin' on me like a big spotlight
So I know everything is gonna be alright

Ain't no tellin' where the wind might blow
Free & easy down the road I go
Livin' life like a Sunday stroll
Free & easy down the road I go
Free & easy down the road I go

If you only get to around one time
I'm gonna sit back and try to enjoy the ride

I could make a million or wind up broke
Free & easy down the road I go
Can't take it with you when you go
Free & easy down the road I go
Someday I know it's gonna take me home so
Free & easy down the road I go
Free & easy down the road I go

-Dierks Bentley

12.06.2009

africa: day 8

Sat. 11.14.09: "an emotional roller coaster of a day"

Our morning was spent in the slum of Mathare.
Before entering Mathare, we met Irene - a beautiful girl from Fountain of Life who helps Clara with the young mothers' ministry and also assists with the home-based care ministry. She was our translator. We also visited a woman named Mary, who lived just across the street from Mathare.
When the Charis Foundation came last March, they met Mary, who was, at that time, living in Mathare. Over the summer, Mary was evicted from her "home" in Mathare. A woman at Fountain of Life helped find Mary the temporary home where we visited her. Mary is about 60 years old, and she has HIV. She also has a granddaughter named Eunice that she cares for. Eunice is 8.
Our visit with Mary was actually cool, because the home where she now resides is much safer and more structurally sound. Sara was really encouraged, because when she met Mary and Eunice, they were desperate; last time Eunice didn't smile at all, but this time she was smiling and laughing and playing with a friend. Fountain of Life is trying to help Mary earn money to purchase a home outside Nairobi.
Dave, Irene, Mary & Eunice, Sara, me, Scott & ... I forget her name.

Then we entered Mathare, where we visited 5 more people (all with HIV).
Mathare is one of three slums in Nairobi.

The first person we visited was Paul. Paul is probably in his 50s. He used to sell "samosas" (meat patties), but has been out of work for 3 months because of a back injury. His family lives "back in the village" where he lived before moving to Nairobi to find work. Paul sort of tagged along became our unofficial tour guide for the remainder of our time in Mathare.
Children flocked to us, chanting "How are you! How are you!"

Next we visited Irene (age 22) and her two children, Washington (age 5) and Sylvia (age 3). Irene's husband passed away in August. Washington is extremely underdeveloped - he can't talk and can barely walk due to a bad case of meningitis and pneumonia when he was an infant. Additionally, this past summer Washington pulled a boiling pot off the table and scalded himself severely, leaving terrible scares on the lower half of his body. Irene earns money to support her family by washing clothes 2-3 times a week.
Cloth strands over the entry of "hotels" and "pubs" indicate that prostitutes are available there. They are literally everywhere in the slums.

After Irene, we visited Florence. Florence has two young boys. I would guess that she's in her mid-30s. Her husband is currently in jail because of false allegations (he was a taxi driver and the man he was carrying had drugs; they were stopped at a checkpoint & the passenger ran off, leaving the drugs behind.). She currently earns money to pay rent and send her boys to school by cooking and selling breakfast and lunch every day. However, her goal is to quit that job and sell firewood instead. Firewood would be more cost-effective because she wouldn't have to worry about it spoiling if no one bought it that day.
The population of Mathare is approximately 500,000.

Then we went to the home of Sarah Madina. She has four children, and her husband has also passed away. I think she's in her 40s. She makes money by washing clothes whenever she can find work. She was also hoping to learn how to sew to earn additional income.


Children make up 60% of the population in Mathare.

Our last visit was Anis (pronounced... um, "anus" - but we like to pronounce it "annis"). She also has four young children, and her husband left her. Before Anis got pregnant with her youngest, her husband began "getting sick" - then when Anis got pregnant, she also began "getting sick". She figured out that her husband had HIV and decided to get tested. Her husband was denying his infection, so she told him that she was going to have some prenatal tests and cleaning done. When she told him she wanted to do that, he told her, "If you go, you're going to hear some bad things, and I don't want to know anything about it." Anis went to the doctor, where she found out that she was HIV positive. When she arrived home, her husband had packed his bags and left her.
The sewage system in Mathare.

Anis is currently learning to sew and she is very passionate about improving her skill - she wants to be able to make an income selling her clothing. Right now she is making money by washing clothes. She can't afford the sewing classes (she can't afford rent either; her landlord took away her door as a warning, so she had a curtain over the entrance), but the instructor gives her cloth scraps for free. When Anis doesn't have any cloth to work with, she practices on paper products - when we visited her, she had a paper skirt and paper "button shirt" sewn and hanging up in her living space. Oh, and when she is able to get cloth scraps? She sews whatever she can get together into shirts, skirts, pants, etc. Since she isn't able to sell these clothes, she gives them to orphans. A woman living in the slums, barely able to earn enough money to feed her family, is giving away clothing she makes to orphans. Talk about a change of perspective.
After our time in Mathare, we went to see our boys. Our beautiful boys - most of whom are from those same streets of Mathare, but who have been rescued. A transformation from despair to hope, from death to life.
It takes my breath away.
I have never had such a tangible picture of Christ's grace. From being surrounded by the hopelessness of the slums to being surrounded by the joy of children who are now hopeful: our lives before His redeeming love and after. Without the cross and resurrection, we are completely lost - there is no hope. But because of the atoning blood of Jesus Christ, we have hope. We have a future glory!
As thankful as I am for that picture, though, if I can be really honest - I still struggle with suffering. It still doesn't make sense, and "because we live in a fallen, sinful world" is still not an acceptable answer. I know that one day there will be no more pain or suffering, and that I'm not the determiner of "fair" or "right" - but I still struggle, and I assume I always will on this side of eternity. However, I think I'm finally learning not to be overwhelmed by pity or the "impossibility of fixing all the problems in the world" - - and I think I'm learning, by the grace of God, to "do right".

12.02.2009

africa: day 7

Fri. 11.12.09

Started the day right: pancakes at the guest house!
After breakfast, we met the FOL boys who were 12 years old or younger at a little play area - monkey bars, slides, etc. They absolutely loved it!



Afterward, we took them to a park where we had a "photo scavenger hunt" - we split up into teams, each team rocking a different color bandana. Doug & I were the leaders of the orange team. Our team members were (L-R in pic below): Paul, Brian, Dan, William & John.
Boys being tuff...

"Human Pyramid"

"Something Flying"

After the photo scavenger hunt, we gave the boys LEGOS!!! Universal fact: little boys love things that have tiny parts that end up being a vehicle of some sort when you put it together.

Some families at our church also donated soccer jerseys for all the boys, so we were able to give those to them - which they were so excited about!

Then we sent the boys home & went to lunch (across the street from the U.S. Embassy in Kenya), where I had the most amazing chocolate milkshake of my life.

After lunch, we met up with the older boys at another park. We split up into groups just to chat with the boys. Sara, Doug & I were in one group with (L-R) Peter, Benedict, Reuben, David & Nicolas. Benedict & Reuben did most of the talking, but the others chipped in occasionally. They were really surprised to find out that Sara, Doug & I were all in our 20s. We talked about a bunch of different things, and over the course of the conversation, Sara taught the boys the term "BFF", which is pretty sweet.

After chatting for awhile, we broke into games of soccer, naturally, and gave them some jerseys as well.

Then... we took the boys to their first movie in a theater! But even better than that - it was their first experience with escalators, which was AWESOME. Absolutely hilarious. The movie theater was in a mall, so they were pretty much smacked with western corruption right away, but one funny story that Dave told us: When the boys were in the bathroom (yeah, about 15 hyper teenaged boys were all crammed in the men's room at once), they were all oohing and aahing over the foam soap dispensers (SOAP DISPENSERS, PEOPLE), and one boy, Joseph, excitedly exclaimed, "I think Jesus must be coming back soon!"

We saw G.I. Joe, which definitely would not have been our choice, but we weren't the ones to pick it - at least the boys loved it... although they probably had no clue what was going on. During the movie, I sat between Dennis & Benedict, who taught me more about selflessness in those 2 hours than 20 years in church. When we arrived at the theater, we got a bunch of popcorns so every 2 boys could share one. Dennis was sharing popcorn with another boy, but noticed that I didn't have any, so he asked if I wanted to share their popcorn. I accepted his offer and took a few small handfuls, but he kept prompting me over and over to, "Take more! Eat some more!" I tossed a couple pieces at some of the boys, instigating a minor popcorn war (sorry, janitors...). During the credits, Dennis kept leaning over to explain things to me: "That is one of our national comedians," or "That is our flag of Kenya," or "This is our National Anthem," (at which point we all stood up).

FOL had also purchased chocolate bars for everyone, which was quite the treat for the boys. I ate a few squares of mine, then gave the extras to a few boys. After we had settled into our seats, Benedict was still working on his chocolate, and he gave me a square. Then, when he was down to his last 2 pieces, he gave one of them to me. I know it's just a small thing, but how often do they get a whole candy bar to themselves? Heck, it takes a lot of effort for me to share chocolate as it is - but for a young boy to give up a piece?? I don't know - it was just a really sweet thing to experience.

Repeatedly humbled by those beautiful boys.

After the movie, we went back to the guest house for the usual: dinner, debrief, bed.

12.01.2009

2009 mastheads

January 2009: When did that happen?
Just a little surprised at the new year's quick approach!

February 2009: Everything from Spam to caviar
From a Hiller's Market grocery bag...


March 2009: Listening for my pennies to drop
From a Tim Keller sermon


April 2009: all that cracks the sinews and cakes the brain
From Moby Dick by Herman Melville

May 2009: bona fide hustler making my name
From "Paper Planes" by M.I.A.

June 2009: as eloquent as an oyster
From "The Glass Menagerie" by Tennessee Williams

July 2009: livin' life like a Sunday stroll...
From "Free and Easy" by Dierks Bentley

August 2009: Them chickens jackin' my style
From "Boom Boom Pow" by the Black Eyed Peas

September 2009: Now with school spirit!
From my own brain.

October 2009: This is my story, this is my song...
From "Blessed Assurance" by Fanny Crosby

November 2009: under african skies
From the title of a Paul Simon song

December 2009: snowing & blowing up bushels of fun
From "Jingle Bell Rock" by Bobby Helms